What matters???

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It's midnight and I'm on the computer...I tried to sleep but had too many thoughts. One my dear friends Michelle sent off balloons for her little James's birthday who passed away a little over a year ago. She posted these on her blog and from there I found another girl who had taken photos of the balloons she sent to heaven for James. I started to read her blog and realized she had not long ago lost her 3 yr old daughter. So after thinking about James, then this little Ava I had to reflect on my own life and sweet children. What matters? Does having a clean house matter? Does having a nice car or house matter? Does any amount of money really matter? Does what we wear matter? Does how big our butt gets really matter? Do our relationships matter.... YES! Can we take them and only them to the grave? Yes! But do I feel that I live by this? No. Will I try and change...so much. I want my children to know that when they walk in a room I am so excited to see them, that they light up my heart, that I love them with all of my being. I want them to enjoy life, to appriciate the little things. To be kind to those around them. I want to do activities with them that are meaningful and good. That inspire and embrase their tender little hearts. To make of their days warm, bright, soft, and wrapped in my arms. I want to let them make messes because that's what they love to do. And then... not mind cleaning up after them. Because we are alive, we are happy, we are blessed. We can do good in this world, we can make a difference. You don't think it will happen to you. Who could ever imagine loosing a child. But what if it does? Will I feel satisfied at the way I mothered them, will they know how much I do cherish them? I hope so. I will do my best to do better at this. I will not feel guilty because of the mother I have been so far, I will only committ to doing better, being better, living better. Who cares about the house, the clothes, the cars, the butt. I know my kids don't. But they do matter, the relationships I have formed- matter. And that is what I will take with me. That is what will make me rich.

Pictures from Fathers Day

Now, if I might brag a bit about my husband...what an awesome man I married! He us such a great husband and father, so patient, kind, SO helpful with the kids and the house, and amazingly steady. He really is so good to us. I needed someone like him to even me out. =) Anyway, here's a few photos from Fathers Day.

Calf Creek

Last week Jasper took the two boys to Calf Creek with his parents, aunt, uncle and cousin. They had so much fun! So I've posted a few of photos Jasper took. What a great Dad he is! Love you babe!

My life today....and most days.

So 2 of my sisters and brother have done a day in the life post. They were so fun to read. But I think I went a little overboard when it came to the picture taking. But it was fun.
The day starts around 7ish...I forgot to take pics earlier. 8am Maddie is already for school and out the door with her friend.

Tae starts out in her favorite spot...she will be here a zillion more times today.

Tan is in love with taking pictures...wonder where he gets that? I get he and Jay breakfast.

Tae finishes...I've never seen her do this before...so much for that outfit.

I unload. It's now about 8:15am

She never just SITS anymore...

8:20 I remember I actually need to eat to live as well. Fiberwise and blueberries...yummmmmm. (ok, so that's an exageration)

The boys finish up and start their day in the backyard


I get Tae dressed and ready, and into the car with the boys. It's now 8:45am

Jare bear...

Thought I take a pic of me =). We're almost to the gym. I have a 9:15 kickboxing class.

Home from the gym and class that almost killed me. 11:10. 11:35 Maddie arrives home from school.

12pm, I put Tae down for a nap. I get the mail, there are photos there. I email clients to let them know their pictures are in.

I sweep for the 2nd time today...I will do this at least 3 more times today.

Why do I sweep before we eat? I don't get myself sometimes...I resort to the kids fav mac and chz. Make it and let the kids eat outside, with Jaren's little friend. Maddie then goes to a friends house.

1pm- WHY are you awake????!!!

Check on kids...playing well, but Tanner is walking a little funny....hmmm

Peed his pants.

"Sorry Mom, sorry."

Strip the child down, spray him down. He actually enjoyed this.

I'd like a tight butt like him. But I don't have one. He gives the lawn a quick drink. Then I bring him inside and get new clothes on him.

Monday is laundry day, I'd put one load in before the gym, so I finally get around to changing it and putting another one in.

Check my email. It's now 1:45. I leave Jana a comment on her blog. Then put Tae down again.

I dump out the Coke I got Jasper for Father's Day. I warned him he could have it for one day only. He should have enjoyed it a little more....=)

Who's that I hear??? Little Tae Tae.

Tanner swears he found a "punkin" in the fridge. I go to get Taelyn up.

She has a snack of banana's and blueberries. Her fav. It's now 2:45. I pick up a little upstairs. Fold 3 loads of laundry, and put them away.

I ask the boys to help me pick up their toys in the front room. So they pose for a picture.

3pm. I run upstairs, fold 3 loads of laundry, pick up the upstairs, then I check onthe boys in the front room. They are obviously not picking up.

Tae has another snack and then finishes...I need to tighten her buckle.

Tae and Jaren play the piano.

Tanner whines for another treat. I say no. He continues to whine. I ignore it. I start to pick up their toys.

Tae LOVES the piano.

I check on the boys to see how their assignment is coming. It's not. They are having yet another pillow fight.

And piggy back rides

.Jaren goes to a friends house 3:30pm I sit down with Tanner and read our favorite book. If you have not read this...it is a MUST!
4pm time to go do a photo shoot. I drop Tanner off at his friend Macy's. They give eachother a nice kiss hello. Then I drop off Maddie at her friends house. Then I pick up Jaren and take he and Taelyn with me.

The shoot goes fabulously.

On my way home I run to Wal Mart. The hell hole of all the earth. I hate that place, but I was in a hurry. Then pick up Tanner. I get home at 6:40
I resort to chicken nuggets and peaches. Jaren doesn't seem too sad about it.
6:50 Jasper comes home. We make milk shakes for family night. Then we sing songs and have prayer and off to bed.

Jasper and I eat after the kids are in bed...8:15. We eat chicken wraps from Sunday. They were really good. Then I work on the computer for about 30 minutes after cleaning the kitchen and putting in another load of laundry. We try to watch tv at 9. I last until about 9:30 and go to bed. =)

Soooo tired....

So I did a wedding today and since I'm all caught up on photo editing I decided to upload this wedding onto my computer to start editing tomorrow. this began at approx. 8:30pm. So now it's 1:05AM and I'm just finishing up. Why can't I just stop something while I'm in the middle of it? The pics look supercalifragilisticexpialidocious. I'm posting a few that I like on here. I'll post a bazillion on my photography blog tomorrow. I'm feeling a little loopy....I'm going to sleep now.